My Helmet, My Rifle, My Dirty Uniform

Thursday, February 22, 2007

ORD
对很多新加坡男生
这是人生中重量级的日子
它不但意味着自由
也代表了新的人生旅程的开始
再也没有永恒的操步
再也没有无限的纪律
再也没有扰乱思路的头盔
再也没有沾满泥土的绿衣

其实
Operationally Ready Date
严格来说
是一种解脱
也是一种责任
这日子真正代表的
是一批又一批的男生
成为了由训练的“战备军人”
象征国家又有一批男生
能够捍卫国土
尤其大多数男生
都是在ORD 那年
真正步入成年
不再是幼稚、冲动的小男孩儿
在这特别的一天
这些“战备军人”
即使没有亲生经历过战争
至少体验过作战的痛苦

虽然不幸的是
世上诸事事与愿违
国防部希望“战备军人”们都能积极参与时候的演习、训练
往往人们都想走为上计
毕生逃离那艰苦的绿衣生活

不过,在人人都觉得好玩的逃避游戏在进行当中
实际上
还是有许多士兵
依然会奉命报到
或许是宪法的规定
或许是自愿地回来
这些成群结队的“战备军人”们
组成了一个又一个“战备军营”
我知道
因为我亲眼见证过

当一群生活忙碌的成人
卸下工作
一窝蜂的聚集在同一点
从甲制服
从演历史
即使体能不如往日
心态也不同
目的却相同:
叙旧当儿、完成任务

国民服役
并不因为ORD而结束
而是在ORD
进入另一阶段

我为这生命的一章谢幕前
在此呼吁所有能干的男公民
积极对待国民服役
国家兴亡,匹夫有责
这老掉牙的谚语
不要等到失去自由
才亲身体会
全职服役的体验
纵然会有点无奈感
但责任依旧要担当
逃避只会影响彼此的参与率
曾经一起经历过的搭档们
都需要你我一起
再次经历
再次奋斗
在身体还能够的当儿
好好维持体能
为自己的健康和体魄感到骄傲
也为军事防卫近一份力
因为这是你和你家人
共同创造的家园

再见 OCS
再见 1 Guards
再见当兵的伙伴们
再见我所有上司
再见跟我合作过的man
但愿我们在下一次ICT重逢

ORD ORH!!!

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

你是我的小猫咪
这只猫咪
外表坚强
内心寂寞

你在朋友面前
是个很有主见的女强人
很知道自己在做什么
别人的劝告
只不过是劝告
你始终相信自己的直觉与判断

坚强的猫咪
在家中
也是一个任性的女儿
爸爸说什么
就任有他去说
妈妈做什么
就任由她去做
反正你会有自己的应对的方法
绝对不会轻易对爸妈认输、让步

一个人的你
因为一直都很信任自己
所以没有让别人看看这一面孤单的你
女人都需要别人去爱
尤其独生女
更厌倦寂寞
更需要爱人陪伴
更加相信爱情

所以这一期间
那一段感情的问号
给你带来了不少的创伤
再加上那份执著任性
加深了创伤所留下的痕迹


我一直相信女人是生来让男人疼的
所以爱情是女人的所有
天意让我认识了你
更让我对你留了情
我只好任命
在我存在的当儿
让我抚摸你的伤口
满足你的任性

你知道我是个自有主张的工作者
同时又是个随和的同伴
做事、要果断
对人、不必太计较
我从来没有迁就得不耐烦
我人就是这样
我允许摸擦、不相信争吵
因为差异必存
只不过要理智处之
让小事上了大雅
就不值得
毕竟一段感情要有摩擦
才有了解、体会

在我不在你身边的这18 天
我担心你劳累的心灵没人安抚
担心你痛苦的回忆没人聆听
担心你把这脆弱的你
又封锁在心灵深处
让伤口又隐隐作痛

所以我交待Michelle
在这几天里
要好好看着你
也跟张妈妈说
要常常带你去逛逛
促进母女关系
虽然有她们陪
也无法帮你什么
但至少我能安心
知道你不孤独
至少在我不在的时候
依然让你感到有人爱护

小猫咪
我真的很想照顾你

等我回来好吗?

Saturday, October 14, 2006

理智
情绪

你知道你在用哪个处理事情吗?

是不是该静下来
摆脱当局者迷的困境
看看到底做什么决定
比较对得起自己

世上没有正确的答案
只有比较担当得起的选择
不要一时让荷尔蒙冲昏了脑袋
做出以后觉得很不应该的抉择

委屈又何必非选不可
折磨又何必给别人摆布

幸福是选择
勇气需要时间

时间是你的
取舍由你挑选

不要伤了自己

Monday, October 09, 2006

乌黑的发围盘成一个圈
缠绕所有对你的眷恋
搁着半透明的脸嘴里说的语言
完全没有欺骗

屋顶灰色瓦片安静的画面
灯火是你美丽那张脸
终于找到所有流浪的终点
你的微笑就输了疲倦

千万不要说天长地久
免的你觉的我不切实际
想多么简单就多么简单
是妈妈告诉我的哲理

**
脑袋都是你
心里都是你
小小的爱在那城里好甜蜜
念的都是你
全部都是你
小小的爱在那城里只为你倾心
**

乌黑的发围盘成一个圈
缠绕所有对你的眷恋
终于找到所有流浪的终点
你的微笑就输了疲倦

千万不要说天长地久
免的你觉的我不切实际
想多么简单就多么简单
让我大声的对你说
i'm thinking of you
**

那回城的票根
你留做纪念
不必害怕面对离别

剪掉一丝头发
让我放在胸前
走到那里都有你陪
相随 yeah yeah~~
**

拉拉拉拉拉~~~~~拉拉拉拉拉

乌黑的发围盘成一个圈
缠绕所有对你的眷恋
那一种寸步不离的感觉
我知道就叫做....缘

Saturday, September 16, 2006

你我的人生中
总有同样的阶段,不同的故事
不同的经历,同样的成长过程

因为不同的经历,和不同的性格
造就了不同的你,和我


纵然经验不相同
有你给的支持
有你给予的关心
有你呈献的谅解
这崭新的道路
有了动人的暖和

难得8年感情
一夜间又再次温暖了你我的心窝
感激你们的在乎
感激你们的接受

接受一个在经历一场
从来没有体验过的旅程的我
在乎我这时的脆弱的我的感受
给予我非常需要的支持

但愿在生活的篇章
久久留着你们的足迹

Saturday, August 12, 2006

its great to see the National Day Parade come to an end

this time i c it not as a spectator

to many, it's just another public holiday
where the family can chill out together
where pple who likes atmosphere can attend a national event

yet
how many of us realise that it is an event
that is more than a birthday
where whole nation celebrate?

it is a day where the nation is most vulnerable
the nation's most important pple are there
ALL of them
gathered in 1 single location
it just takes:
1 explosive
1 sec
to make the country leaderless
a million people to panic,
a million citizens to lose faith in the country's leaders' reliability
a million foreigners to throw away the impression of the country's stability
and a million days for the country to regain its reputation
that it has built a million hours ago


how many of us understand
the level of security works
the amount of hardwork
the number of networking
the countless of watchful eyes
that is going on inside, outside, beyond and above the actual day itself?

every sucessful NDP
is a reassurance to the leaders, the country, the citizen
that our people are able to organise a peaceful event

every successful display
is a reflection of our national goals
a showcase of our military power and discipline
the energy and unity of the nation
from schools, public, military, police, food caterers, contractors, media
all working as one
going into 1 mood
that is the celebration of the nation

it is indeed impressive
and proud
to see your own homeland
developing into a renown country
whom superpower like USA do take notice of,
growing economy China wants to work with,
Arab countries like Saudi Arabia wanna learn from,
More ulu countries like Chile wanna sign Free Trade Agreement,
whom even north korea treasures relationship with

mere 41 years
its just like having only 1 year experience in a business world
yet other companies give recognition to you

yet this is not abt 1 company
where profits and gains takes priorities
and members only add up to mere 100

it is about one whole nation
where finance, social stability, environment, education, military defence, homeland safety, national development etc
all gain the same footing and carry the same weight
and its citizens sum up to millions
from newborn babies, to thinking adults, to dependant senior citizens
from chinese, malay, indians, eurasians, to many other races
so many factors
yet a prosperous society

for those who runs a company
or even a class
or just work with a partner
we should know how difficult it is
for pple to really work together
heart to heart...

...now think abt working the whole nation

for many who don't realise ur own situation
where u stand, where u can contribute
u're probably thinking of why didn't the government do this and that
why such problem occur
who should take the blame
how disgraceful and unprofessional things are getting
how to make complaints sound nice
and when u can migrate to another land
where u think u will be more appreciated
where u think is more comfortable
where u choose to lead a i and myself life

what you don't know is
how important u r to the society
how ur efforts play a part
how lucky u are
and you don't know that
humans needs to work as teams, big or small
humans do make mistake
decisions are not as simple as it seems to those of the lower level of involvement
u r probably pampered by the society


I am proud to be a Singaporean
and i wanna do my part
and i know it is small and insignificant
but i know it counts
at least to those other Singaporeans around me

What about YOU?

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

i've reached a point in life
where i think my job is really damn dispensible
redundant
in fact, i've never thought much abt my appointment

they call it company 3IC
which means the 3rd in command basically
but sometimes
it just doesn't help
if u have equal experience as ur colleague
n given a higher appointment

anyway
i trained to be a platoon commander
it sucks to later not be able to apply what u use
n be confident abt it
it ends up that i have to take up a role i haven never been taught
a role anyone can take
a role that everyone can overrule n overwhelm
a role that has not much decision to make
but have to find others for decision
a role that is last minute created due to excess officers
a role that makes u feel SPARE

yeap that's me n my role

well sometimes i do feel myself itchy backside
if u give me a responsibility
don't expect me to sit still n let nothing happen
i'll go look for soemthing to do, something to settle
sitting down n wait is not my kind
but turns out
this role
u have to sit n wait sometimes
n it sucks to c things getting in ur way
but u can't make immediate decisions
cos though i'm the 3rd in command
conflict with 1st n 2nd in command still stands
yeap
n so wad is there to command after all?

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life is starting to become a bore
no motivation
no life
no sharing
no feeling of someone concerned abt u

it can be environment
it can be inner self

but in any case
there's no drive,
no purpose
productivity is all time low
memory is all time least
i guess its a form of depression
but something that we normally don't recognise.

i needa find back that stimulant
........soon